Deployment Funk

It's been one of those days. I just can't shake the negative feelings about deployment. There has been a build up over the past couple of days. I've been fighting them off as much as possible. I've just been feeling like this deployment is so long. I hate when I get caught off guard by the negative. I do so well for weeks and then one day or week...BAM!...I feel like I'm in month 1. The difference being I'm better at coping and letting the mood pass without too much negative impact. Sadly, this week I didn't do so well at shielding the innocent people. I know my limitations and have retreated to the comfort of my own home until this burns out.

I kind of brought it on myself by attending the military breakfast at church today. I always enjoy attending. Fellowship with friends, meeting other military families in our church, breakfast, and free childcare. What's not to love? Each month is a different theme, a different guest speaker. With Valentine's Day just around the corner, you would have to expect the topic to be marriage. I don't think I was in a good place to listen to a two hour talk about communicating in marriage. Heck, I'm lucky to get an email when I wake up. By the time we closed in prayer, I was just asking God to let me hold the tears back long enough to sneak out of the room. Not a good start to the day.

The rest of the day was busy. The boys got haircuts, frozen yogurt for all, we replenished Derrick's jean wardrobe, and picked up a few things at the grocery store.

I can always tell when I'm in a bad mood by what I buy at the store. I came home with a 50 pack of potato chips and $20 in magazines. I would say it was a foul mood. 

Hoping for a restful night and a happy Sunday!