Fall tops the list. I was so excited to experience seasons again. As much as California loves a corner lot pumpkin patch and Starbucks seasonal drinks, Autumn does not exist. If you don't have fall foliage and crisp cool air on sunny days, then you don't have Fall. I missed this! The best kind of ombre!
The past week has been a struggle. There was a not so cool encounter with another parent that really bothered me. I wrote everything out in a post and then I just let it sit. Then, I deleted it because that isn't what I need. What I really want to say is I struggle often here to find my connection. Often times, I feel rejected or like I don't fit in. On one hand, I do think I've had a somewhat jaded view :) I might be a little biased towards my old home. The other hand, I think there are some legitimate underlying negative social behaviors that will make it difficult for me to connect with people. That is my tactful way of saying I feel like I'm back in middle school. So, I've just decided to say f*it and do my thing. If I do what I enjoy, I know I will find my people.
If you ever want to do some deep self-evaluating, then PSC right before deployment. And don't live near a military base. I know, you are asking why anyone would ever do that :) I don't know! *lol*
If you ever want to do some deep self-evaluating, then PSC right before deployment. And don't live near a military base. I know, you are asking why anyone would ever do that :) I don't know! *lol*
Monday was my Ipsy delivery day. Which means more fun mail. What a week! I love Ipsy glambags. October's bag is so cute! Ipsy post coming soon. I write those posts for about 13 people who like them :) 12 if you're counting me!
Time for me to share the love! Homemade Reese's Pieces Peanut Butter cookies for the kids.
Tuesday was HIIT class. After a month of attending class, Tuesday was my first time doing all the exercises without modifications. Huge accomplishment for me!
I've been walking about 2 miles daily. Our neighborhood street is made like a figure 8. Each lap is 1 mile. I'm "the one who is always out walking" nearly everyone comments when I meet them along the way. Thursday I decided to take some pictures around the neighborhood of Halloween decorations to share with our missing family member.
Three houses...it's not looking too promising for Trick or Treaters in our neighborhood. I need to add to the fun and decorate our house yet. I don't have much time left!
One little tree in the neighborhood changing colors right now.
I think Jacksonville is just a totally different beast when it comes to making real friends! I've been back for 8 months (also from CA) and I honestly haven't made any friends. I can't handle the drama and pettiness so I pretty much stick to myself and the few friends I had when we lived here before. That being said, the Fall weather and all of the room/lack of traffic will always make me prefer it here over CA. I hope you have a good week! :)
ReplyDeleteFall in NC was probably my most favorite thing about living there. It was amazing!
ReplyDeleteWe PCSed right before our first deployment. I recommend it to no one.
ReplyDeleteHowever, this type of arrangement teaches you how strong you can be!
I'm guilty of rose-colored glasses when looking at the past duty stations.
I love that y'all get a little foliage up there - sad to say that Charleston has none :-\ I hope the transition continues to get easier. I really like that you wrote everything out. I've done that a few times and also deleted the post - I just felt better getting it all out.
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Aw I wish we lived there! I'd be your friend! It's hard for me too because our military life isn't conventional. I don't live on base here and obvs won't in Massachussets.
ReplyDeleteI am sorry the transition has been so hard. We actually thought we would finally meet a good military core of people here and instead I have connected with a lot of people through church. I hope you find your niche soon! How long is the deployment?
ReplyDeleteHey there, I'm sorry you are struggling a bit. My sister in law and you seem like you could be great friends. She is also the "f it" type, and doesn't like the drama/crazy that sometimes accompanies military life. They live out in Swansboro though, so I think opposite side of Jax from you (my bro is stationed at NR)
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