Saturday, February 9, 2013

Deployment Funk

It's been one of those days. I just can't shake the negative feelings about deployment. There has been a build up over the past couple of days. I've been fighting them off as much as possible. I've just been feeling like this deployment is so long. I hate when I get caught off guard by the negative. I do so well for weeks and then one day or week...BAM!...I feel like I'm in month 1. The difference being I'm better at coping and letting the mood pass without too much negative impact. Sadly, this week I didn't do so well at shielding the innocent people. I know my limitations and have retreated to the comfort of my own home until this burns out.


I kind of brought it on myself by attending the military breakfast at church today. I always enjoy attending. Fellowship with friends, meeting other military families in our church, breakfast, and free childcare. What's not to love? Each month is a different theme, a different guest speaker. With Valentine's Day just around the corner, you would have to expect the topic to be marriage. I don't think I was in a good place to listen to a two hour talk about communicating in marriage. Heck, I'm lucky to get an email when I wake up. By the time we closed in prayer, I was just asking God to let me hold the tears back long enough to sneak out of the room. Not a good start to the day.



The rest of the day was busy. The boys got haircuts, frozen yogurt for all, we replenished Derrick's jean wardrobe, and picked up a few things at the grocery store.


I can always tell when I'm in a bad mood by what I buy at the store. I came home with a 50 pack of potato chips and $20 in magazines. I would say it was a foul mood. 


Hoping for a restful night and a happy Sunday!



Nicole

10 comments:

  1. So sorry that you are in a funk. It will get better!

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    1. The fog is starting to lift. Thanks for the encouragement.

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  2. Day by day, you are so strong and it is totally okay to be in a funk. Enjoy those chips and mags!!

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    1. Thank you Kate. I have to remind myself of the day by day. I think I've been enjoying the chips a little too much :)

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  3. You will make it through. You're definitely the only one that goes through this, so don't feel alone. And enjoy those potato chips and magazines - party it up, girl!

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    1. Thank you Jenny. I am so glad to have the support of other military spouse bloggers. It's nice to release these feelings and have such understanding.

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  4. I hear you there!! I'm so done with it and we still have 6 months and 3 weeks! :( so over this. Hugs friend!!! I don't even have it in me to blog, :(

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    1. Randi, thank you for stopping in and leaving a quick comment. I've designated you my deployment blogger buddy. Not to be selfish, but it's comforting to hear you have those days too. This to shall pass, right?!?

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